Grieving

I feel the droplets of colorless rain,
on my cold skin
as I stunt silently by the calm sea
and its little rolling waves
tickle my back
but I don't feel like sailing my soul tonite
I am grieving
behind the chill of my own shade
Is it really raining out here??
Or
is it my own tears pouring down my heart??
the turbulence waves of emotions
tossed me around like a ship sailing in an angry ocean.
I am drowned by sorrow in the flood of tears.